so. i realize that i probably should have posted this sooner. my poetry deals with a lot of heavy stuff, and i understand that people who read it are probably pretty messy, like me.
this is going to be an ongoing list of any mental health resources i find on the internet.
everyday stuff to help you cope
- mindshift– app designed to help manage anxiety
- self-harm coping techniques
- dan jones hynpnosis (for anyone who struggles to sleep)
- calm harm– app designed to help manage self-harm, available on the app store
- clear fear– app designed to help manage anxiety, available on the app store
- woebot– robot designed to help you cope on a day-to-day basis with mental illness, only available for those who are of legal age
- replika– robot designed to help you cope on a day-to-day basis with mental illness, available for all ages
- to write love on her arms
i get hits from all over the place, so i can’t recommend anyone specific for you. but i can give you this list! and this one! and this one! and this one! and this one! it’s not a replacement for actual long-term therapy. but it does help a lot when you’re in a moment of crisis and you feel alone to just talk to someone. i’m pretty sure most local areas (at least in established countries) will have a helpline? try googling “crisis lines *insert where you live*” for me, i’ve usually spent 90 mins talking to counsellors there, including time on hold? so make sure you have enough time. if you’re living at home and you don’t want the people you’re living with to know, try going out in the backyard or on the balcony if you have one, where your conversation will at least be somewhat private, or taking your cell somewhere you can have a private conversation, or text a helpline and say you’re texting a friend.
does counselling/therapy help?
i can’t speak for everyone. but i know i am talking to a therapist, and for me it hasn’t helped everything, but does make my brain feel a little more steady. in my limited experience, counselling usually costs $125 per session, which is more than a lot of people can pay. try looking for charities that offer free counseling? in my town, there’s a service this charity offers, where they’ll pay for up to five sessions of your counselling if you can prove you can’t afford to pay. i’m in canada, so i can’t speak for everyone, but i know you can also get counselling from the government, free of charge, which is how i’m now getting therapy, but i think that’s only available in certain provinces.
don’t have any advice here, since although i take 100mg of apo-fluvoxamine (luvox), i haven’t figured out the right dose, but i do know that medication can help, and so far has not changed my cognitive/creative abilities whatsoever.
i am not a doctor! i am writing this because, honestly, i’ve felt really alone and lost in this mental chaos, and i still do, and if any of you guys reading this feel that way too, i want to give realistic, honest guidance. BUT… i am only one person. everyone’s experience is different. if you guys want to talk about your own experiences with mental illness, i’d love to hear about it in the comments. also, if you have any resources you can reccomend, please leave a link in the comments and i’ll shove it up here as soon as i can.
hang in there. i’m sending all my hugs your way. it’s ok to be afraid to seek help, but do not let that fear define you forever. i’m rooting for you, and i am proud of you for how far you have come, even if no one else is. ❤