i’m losing control. i know i’m losing my control. and you’re inside of me now. swimming in my throat.
so get away from me. get away from me. because i’m going to explode.
because i’ve been hurt enough times that i am not going to take the risk of letting go. and don’t touch me. get off me. i don’t deserve your love, and in the end you’re only going to reject me. i don’t think i was made for this kind of reality.
so close your eyes, okay? say that you hate me until i beg you not to go, and gouge scars into my chest, right through my clothes. slam the door closed…